Is This Right?!

This is Week 36 (now)

This is Week 34

Now I know that these are two different settings, but it sure looks like my stomach got gigantic over the last two weeks!

I am super swelling at this point, and my blood pressure is elevated, but I am not preeclamptic.  So, that is good!  I am hoping that I will not get preeclampsia.  If I do get it, the good news is that I will probably not have to have a c-section just because of that.  They are follwing me weekly now, so they are monitoring it pretty closely, and if I do get preeclampsia, they can induce me instead of doing a c-section.  I am hoping that there will be no need of either, but I would like to avoid a c-section if I can.

How do I feel?  That depends on the day.  The hour.  The minute.  I am tired most of the time, but I feel better at night, usually.  I can't believe how much harder it is to move around.  I've even resorted to using the handicapped stall in the bathroom at work, because it's hard to get off the regular-height toilet!  I teeter between being kind of miserable and totally ready to get Freya out to still having some anxiety about the birth, although that is much less now.  I think I am resigned that whatever will happen will happen, and this pregnancy is wearing me down to the point that I care much less about the actual process than I did before.  I can't wait to see Freya, though! 

Chris and I spend time wondering what she'll look like.  We wonder if she'll be born with a lot of hair and what color it will be, etc. etc.  I know it will take a little time before she will look like herself, but it will be fun to see her in the beginning, too.

Besides having her in the world, the things I am most looking forward to doing after she's born are going for walks, being able to sleep in the bed again (and not on the couch), being able to move about freely, having full use of my hands again (because the swelling will go away eventually), not having to eat Tums several times a day and eating french fries (because I'm trying to avoid salt right now).  Oddly enough, alcohol is not on that list.  I will have some wine or a drink eventually, but I think it will be some time before I do.  Besides, I'll be breastfeeding, so I would need to watch it, anyway.

Okay.  I am pretty tired now, so I am stopping.