Week 11

Today begins week 11.  I feel okay today, and that's a good thing, because I have been really sick over the last week.  I finally went to the doctor on Friday and was diagnosed with a sinus infection and given antibiotics.  I cannot tell you how much better I am feeling today!  Yesterday was pretty good, and today is even better.

I have lost around five pounds.  I usually teeter between a loss of five to seven.  I haven't been throwing up or missing meals, either.  It doesn't bother me, though, because I know that my body is working hard to grow this fetus.  It's hard to eat all the things I know I should be eating, because vegetables, fish and some meats DO NOT sound or taste good to me now.  I am hoping this will pass, because I am looking forward to farmers market season and grilled fish this summer.  What I have really missed eating are deli meats on sandwiches, some soft cheeses (although I found out I can eat the goat cheese and feta we usually buy, because it's pastuerized), and smoked fish.  The smoked fish thing seems wierd, because fish itself doesn't sound good, but for some reason, smoked trout or salmon is something I kind of want a lot of the time.  I also find that my satiety cues are kicking in a lot quicker and I get full faster.  I find myself not being able to finish things that I once would have not only finished but would have eaten even more, if given a second portion.  This may be one of the only times of my life that I haven't regretted food I've consumed.  I know that my body is changing, and there are some clothes I don't feel like I look good in anymore, but it is one of the only times I haven't had food on my mind a lot of the time, either planning meals (because it's almost impossible to know what I'm going to like or what will make me nauseous at any given time), thinking about a meal I'm going to eat out with friends or family, or feeling guilty about what I've just consumed.  There is no more weekend vs. weekday eating - eating anything I want on the weekend and being very rigid in what I eat on weekdays.  I like this new relationship with food, and I have to say that being completely sober is also gratifying.  I am surprised but happy about how this particular part of pregnancy has turned out.

See you next time!